A Lonely Home

The house is lonely without anyone else here. I don't mind the silence and I know I have to be brave while I'm alone. I can be brave, I know that much is true.

Today they took 10 vials of my blood. My arm hurts and soon the Mark of Cain will return. Don't worry, I will just tell people I am back doing heroin again. No one will suspect.

My grandmother always says, "Things will work out in the end." She is from a generation that has worked through life and in her 70s can say it and rightfully believe it. I can't wait to get to that day where I can say, "This will work out in the end. They did for me."

Can't Win Them All...But We Will Try

Ever wake up and feel your face looks like this?

Some days, I do. Then I realize it's just a reflection of the light...I mean my nose isn't difficult to miss. Honestly. Oh and, SE7EN has it's own comic book series? Jigga what?! I need these soon! This movie used to entrance me.

I can be cruel, I don't know why?

If you're surprised, don't be. I suffer from major blood lust sometimes. I tend to create these vivid and brilliant death scenes for in my mind. I would never act them out, just consider movies like Saw 3 and SE7EN as proper cathartic ways for me to deal with my emotions.*

Tomorrow is Legally Blonde for sure! I am going to also try to attend the Betty Comden Memorial, at two, which will have a bunch of big Broadway Diva names like Christine Ebersole, Donna Murphy, Beth Leavel, Etc, etc. Not Audra though. She had to cancel. I will try, but honestly I'm not going is I need to be there by 9:30! Sorry Betty, your memory will live on.

I decided to fool with the mind of of The Cyclist today.

Texting him odd little messages.

I did sort of make a deal with him. He went skydiving the other day and I agreed that if he made it to the ground alive...I would let him cum all over me.

I feel that's a fair trade for staying alive...

Remember when I said I wanted a boyfriend...well I still need to work on my approach.

*No, I am not a serial killer.