Wednesday, October 31

Matchmaker, Matchmaker...

I was on manhunt.net tonight, avoiding men as I usually do nowadays when a guy messages me. His profile says this:

ani ohev bisli

ani ohev boolbool yoter


I reply to his message with:

hi., What is that in your profile? haha a secret language?
He replies with:

hebrew
r u in park slope cuz it says ur 10014 zip code

I mean come on, seriously!? It's a site for sex and you expect people to pick up on that?!

A secret language...that's a GOOD one! In my head I'm thinking, oh that's cute. Probably something he invented when he was a kid and spoke with his mother.

Tuesday, October 30

Weekend In the Country

Time for illegal bootleg musical reviews:

  1. Hedwig and the Angry Inch (stage version)Phenomenal! Really funny, sometimes bad sound quality. Totally great though. I just feel for it much more than the movie. There's something about a stage show with one person telling a tale. You don't need all the extra scenes, you just need that energy to get you through. The ending was great, when Hedwig turns into Tommy, it just explained a lot to me. It also made more sense to me than the movie.
  2. Sweeney Todd Revival — It was so great to see Patti back on the stage again. I remember seeing it in 2005 and hating it. I was in a much different place in my life though. I wasn't happy. Watching it again has made me realize how much I adore it. It's a brilliant revival. All the characters are played very well and with a touch of craziness. Watching it through something struck me about the ending. That I never thought of. It's just a silly little fact, but it made things a little more interesting.
  3. Chess the 2003 Concert Version — Funny show. I still enjoy the Swedish production more. It was great to finally hear. Yet something lacked...oh yes the ending. The DVD cuts out right before the final song. I don't mind, I got all I needed from it. The extra songs they added is what I mean. That's all I needed to hear, really. Otherwise it's kind of a snooze, but fun to watch. The Swedes do it so much better because it's a full out production. Sure you can't understand a word, but it's so fun to watch.

In other news, it's been go-go-go in life. Tomorrow will be the third day I don't get proper sleep. It's how it works. You sit there and say, well if he has no free time, then how is he watching musicals?

My answer is, while I write my paper, while I sew my beret, while I do things. I envy those who "have time" I look forward to it someday soon. Finishing this paper tonight has assured me sometime.

I was going to write more, but I got distracted...DAMN!

Her life must change

Come to bed Laura Brown.

Monday, October 29

Ah, Pairee!

So I handmade this Beret...extra floppy yo!
Sometimes I wish that I were Beth Fowler. I would be famous, but without all that publicity...

Remind me why I'm alone again?

Saturday, October 27

A Childhood in SierraTM Part I

It all started the other night when I was reading about the 13 scariest moment in video game history. Number 2 (warning it's a touch gross) was this scene from a video game of my childhood, which was Phantasmagoria a game I played countless times in my preteen and early teenage years. This game was made by none other than Sierra a company that's games shaped my childhood.

Not having many friends growing up I had three big hobbies. Playing in the woods by myself for countless hours and and creating imaginary tales in my mind, riding my bike for hours and continuing the story trend and playing Sierra computer games for hours and letting the stories be told me me. Sierra created some of the most amazing Adventure games of all time. Unfortunately, as time progressed and people got bored with stories and wanted blood, these games have faded away.

The graphics were impressive and pixelated, but above all else the stories of each game were enticing and memorizing, join me as I take a walk down memory lane...*

Long ago it all started with this game, Torin's Passage, that just transported me into this magical world where I was mystified. I played this game probably hundreds of times looking to solve all the secrets. The puzzles were very difficult for a 8 year old, but I solved them using only the cryptic hint guide in the game. The game kept score of 100 points and I can rightly say that you could only ever get 99 points total. I played enough times and never got that final point! It also had 7 chapters, which each chapter took place in a different world. You could start in any world, but you wouldn't see all the story movies that let the cute tale unfold. It had plot twists that used to leave me in tears. The love story was bittersweet and the ending was complete but tragic in it's own way.

Then my aunt introduced me to Kings Quest VII. I was hooked from the moment it installed onto my computer. It was difficult and once again enticing, when I discovered that the preceding six other games were available in the Roberta William's collectors edition I was in bliss! Who needed friends when the Daventry family was there to show you the way? Granted the games were a touch primitive and the graphics weren't complex, but the story was impressive.

In seven games they told the story of a royal family and their adventures. The first game told of Sir Graham's quest to become king of Daventry. The second was about Graham's quest for his soon to be wife, Valanice, who was trapped in a tower. The third game told the story of their son, Edgar who was kidnapped by a wizard as a baby and his return to Daventry and learning of his true family. The fourth of Rosella as she set out on her own quest to save Graham as he fell ill. The fifth returned Graham as his entire Kingdom has been stolen by an evil wizard and put into a Jar. The sixth (and probably the best of the games) told of Edgar's adventure to find his true love (following in his father's footsteps of course, but this time the game was so complex). Finally, the seventh was Rosella's chance to find her long lost love and for the first time you played Valanice (the sassy dame she was indeed). The stories were all interweaved and that made them all the more amazing.

I even bought a book that catalogued the entire series, The King's Quest Companion, which contained all you ever needed to know. Including maps of each of the lands they traveled.

Then came Space Quest. This series proved that games coule be incredibly humorous and still interesting for Six Episodes. They were parodies of everything Space and Sci-Fi. They mocked Star Wars, Philip K. Dick, Terminator and even the Wizard of Oz. The Titles were SQ I: The Sarien Encounter, SQ II: Vohaul's Revenge, SQ III: The Pirates of Pestulon, SQ IV: Roger Wilco and the Time Rippers, SQ V: The Next Mutation and SQ VI: The Spinal Frontier.

Each one got more funny as they went on. The best of this series was SQ IV where you traveled in time through the different Space Quest games of the past, present and future. It was a brilliant idea! Genius even. Specially when SQ IV ended with you meeting your future wife, only to meet her for real in the next game. Talk about wonderful plot twists!

End of Part 1, Part 2 soon!

* Some links lead to youtube videos others lead to pictures. Click them all to get a feel of my childhood.

Thursday, October 25

Quick Notes, Quick Notes!

  1. I will blog another time, but I am THRILLED to say that a friend of mine just sent me like 24 DVDs of different Broadway shows! I'll be blogging about it later. Let's say I have two shows with Patti Lu. Side Show, Marie Christine, Carrie, two Cabarets and so many more! I'm SO happy right now. I can't wait to watch them all.
  2. I am once again ignoring my research paper and heading to Manhattan to see a SAW movie MARATHON! For 11 dollars I'll be seeing the first three SAW movies back to back. How brutally fun that will be. I bought enough Chocolate to kill a FAT lady even. I probably won't sleep tonight for all the gruesome imagery, but it's 11 bucks and it's three movies. I DID get a friend to come along, he'll be late but he's already seen the first one so that's good at least.
  3. I feel more flustered than I have EVER been, I didn't accomplish a single thing today, and yet I now have so many musicals to watch. Really research papers can suck my BALLS!
  4. Oh yes I forgot, the Chess Concert starring Julie Murney, Raul Esparza, Adam Pascal, Josh Groban and Sutton Foster is ALSO one of the shows I have...LIFE IS COMPLETE!
Time to watch some blood.

Wednesday, October 24

The Goblins will be out...

Though I am not REALLY celebrating Halloween this year since I will be at work and I need to wake up early the next morning. I think I will dress up and go to work...perhaps. I don't really need to, but this weekend I am going to shop and see what I can find.

I have decided what I am going to be. A young Albus Dumbledore when he was at Hogwarts and in his formative years.

Seeing that J.K. Rowling has broken bounds by including a gay character in her legendary series and leaving out God all together, I may as well celebrate this fact. So in case you ever wondered what Albus looked like as a young man, I can answer that easily...

You should see his wand too, long and hard!

Evil du(de)

I know he's supposed to be considered REALLY hot and muscular. However, I find Cheyenne Jackson really unattractive.

Example:
But why do you think so, Iguana? You ask. Well I'll tell you, he just looks evil. The eyes are to light for his dark hair, it gives him this maniacal look. Also his smirk and well his whole looks is creepy to me. Plus I'm not convinced he's 32...

In the style of Sunset Blvd, I want to say to him, "Nothings wrong with being 40, unless you're acting 20."

Patterns in Life

On this week, a year ago I wrote this:

So really quick cause that's apprently how my life is about to move...

Cause I don't have time to REALL type out an entry I'll just post the email I just wrote to a friend explaining my situation. I'm freaking out right now. But I do love my Post-Script. Even in times of panic I still think about theater.



J,

Its completely understandable, I am sorry that happened. It was sort of sucky, the guy who I was "dancing" with revealed he was totally gay when he spoke with CJ. He didn't even like me enough to talk to me after we shared such a special moment. haha.

So about the actual REAL news in my life. I am trying my best to stay calm, but it was in Philosophy where I started losing my nerve. Neil has mentioned how the lease is up in October. Meaning if they don't let the woman renew her lease, I have to be out soon. I'm trying not to cry but I feel tears coming. I have never felt this tense in my life. Neil is in a messy state, he's nervous as hell and it only made me feel worse. He is all paranoid that the landlord caught on that I was living there (by asking our neighbors) because they're the only people who could possibly know I'm "living" there. And that that may be the reason they're not renewing the lease.

That's what's in his head. What is more reasonable is apprently several months ago some bitchy tenant on a different floor accused Neil of subletting from the woman (they have told everyone they're dating and she is away in Europe for a while) and that she probably complained to the landlord (as people aren't allowed to sublet in that building apprently...I have no real idea. Neil tells me this ALL today) So the woman called and told him they're not letting her renew the lease, but she doesn't know 100% why. So he's feeling this immense guilt trip thinking about telling the woman that I was there for a little bit inbetween apartments. I told him to just play stupid until information is told to him. Also he started freaking out MORE because someone rang the buzzer, no one EVER does and someone came to the door, Neil didn't answer cause he just got that phone call. So in short his stress has moved to me, yadda yadda and I'm about to cry. So I'm trying to just figure out what to do, I'm gonna call Scott when I get home from school to ask about that room and then there's like two other possible things, but other than that I may have to move in less than a month and really that doesn't wear right on the soul.

I'm sitting in class thinking. OMG I need to find a place to move, I need to find time to move and I need to possibly do this in all of about 2-3 weeks. Therapy has to wait it seems and a nervous breakdown in on the edge. I'm in midterms, I've got papers due, I have work to go to, and all this other stuff. Now I need to move, I'm terrified of moving again and having what happens happens. Do you think you'd be able to help me rent a Uhaul when the time comes, there is a place right down the road. I don't want to hire movers again.

Craig

P.S. Did you ever find someone to tak the extra ticket to My Deah? I could have someone in mind. I know that's not really top priority but I was wondering.



I guess if anyone can help me out I would appreciate that, but it's just hope I'm living on.

I realized that this explains why I'm having the issues I'm having right now. A year ago I was in panic mode, the only thing I could think of was staying afloat, staying in the city. I didn't worry about the future, only making it to the next day.

This year being a little less hectic of course it's natural that I'm finding something to worry about that involves future plans. I shouldn't worry, yet I do. It's weird to have had the year I had last year. What's stranger is that marking this week means the year is done officially and these struggles officially become memory.

I am trying my best to keep my spirits up and all that other rut. It's funny that with the marking of this year ending. I look back and see so much that's changed, yet it all seems to little.

This also marks the official entrance of the GC into my life, him being absent for a bit while he was on a trip. Being grateful and helpful to give me a place to stay and help during the hard times. It's not difficult to see why I felt the way I did for him, with the kindness he gave to me. It's also somewhat ironic that he's really no longer in my life at all anymore. Yearly cycles truly are so strange, yet the patterns always prove to be the same.

And thus the caterpillar sheds it's cocoon and becomes a butterfly.


Tuesday, October 23

A New Brain

Now, I find that about two people who read this will find it as enjoyable as I do. Regardless, if you could enter my mind at any time of any day this is most likely what you would find going on in there...