Gay Love Signs: Cancer

A friend gave me this book. Here's what it says about Cancers. See if you can see me in this:

Symbol: The Crab

Ruling Planet: The Moon

Colors: Pale blues and greens.

Natural House Ruler ship: Fourth House, the house of the home and the family

Fourth House Traits: Desire for emotional security and regard for the past

Motto: I FEEL

Element: Water Sign (Emotional)

Parts of the Body: Chest and stomach

Now select quotes:

As a Cardinal sign, your instinct is to lead with your creative, intelligence and quick wit. At the same time, however, your innate shyness holds you back. You question yourself , weighing your need for affection and recognition against your fear of rejection, ridicule or failure.

Extreme sensitivity is both your prime talent and your biggest obstacle in developing a successful personality. You are intuitive, but the shifting sands of your moods cause you to doubt your ability to act upon your feelings. You need a sound affectionate continuity in your life to give you emotional security in a sea of change.

Cancer is blessed with the power of intuition. You can see someone who attracts your interests or attention and file them away in your memory. Your paths will mysteriously intersect in the future, almost as if you had willed it. Often, these chance encounters will reveal important associations in your life. In similar ways, your sex partners are "chosen for you."

Worry and doubt can nibble at your consciousness like the tides eroding the shoreline of self-confidence. Your imagination is so finely tuned that you can fall prey to unwarranted paranoia. A glance, a sigh, a hesitation or an overheard remark can etch itself in your brain and send you into gloomy despair or delicious rapture.

As you become more sexually experienced and self-assured, you learn to cope with anonymous or casual partners. But your need for gentle and affectionate contact can become frustrated in the search for uninvolved sex because Cancers tend to size up each trick as a potential partner.

Many Cancers live too much in the past, failing to take advantage of the present. You keep your secret hurts and fears to yourself, and yet you long for a lover with whom you can be open and vulnerable.

It's weird, the whole thing. It rings true, perhaps cause it's vague, but it's me to the small details.

A friend from high school's mother passed away today. It's weird how life works, memories of people you push back in your mind. It makes you think about how we archive memories. Which ones gain precedence over others. When people tell me memories of high school, that I can't remember. Does that mean I neglected to see the significance in keeping that memory close?

I remember being in 8th grade and going to an elementary school. I was volunteering for their after school drama program. It was myself and another classmate. The girl who would eventually try and "save" me from being a homosexual.

My friend's mother ran the program and we put on two plays. I got to know young 5th Graders who wanted to be "stars" in the show. It was a fun and pleasant time.

Such an interesting memory to show up.